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I grew up without any knowledge of the scriptures, so I knew nothing of God’s penalty for sin and damnation.  Oh yes!  I heard a lot about God and His love, because my mother and grandmother made sure I went to church every Sunday.  But when I grew up, I indulged myself in several sinful practices.  My conscience told me they were wrong but without Christ, I lived for sin, self and the world.

Praise God, on October 21, 1993 I heard that I was a sinner heading for hell and the lake of fire; that God in His mercy sent His Son to die for my sins and that believing in Him I could be set free.   Choking with conviction, I walked out the doors avoiding all Christians.  That night I couldn’t sleep.  The Holy Spirit dealt with my heart and I knelt beside my bed and asked Christ to forgive me of my sins, come into my heart and save me from my sins.

Oh, the peace that flooded my soul and the joy I felt in my heart.  I couldn’t wait to tell my cousin who had invited me to church that I was saved.  The Holy Spirit convinced me that I couldn’t continue to live in sin and for sin any longer.  I dedicated my life to God.  I remember telling the Lord that I did not want to live in sin anymore and that I wanted to be used of Him in some way.  I recall making the beds where I worked and telling the Lord that I wanted to do something more for Him – I wanted to be doing something more meaningful for Him.  I prayed and waited on the Lord to answer my prayer.  A whole year passed and one night after meeting, I was approached by the late “Papa C” asking me to pray about serving the Lord here at the Harbour Light.

I felt unworthy.   Yes, I wanted to do something for the Lord, but I never thought about serving Him at the Harbour Light!  Yet, the answer to my prayer was so vivid, so clear, that I just had to praise the Lord!

That was one prayer answered but I needed a husband.  So I continued praying.  I claimed Matthew 21:22 as my very own.  And all things whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer believing, ye shall receive.  I asked and kept on asking.  I sought an kept on seeking.  I knocked and kept on knocking.  There were times when I couldn’t even kneel to pray.  I would walk up and down my room praying all kinds of prayers – pleading, thanking, supplicating etc.  I specifically prayed for certain qualities in my husband.  I said “Lord, I would like to see that my future husband is a sincere lover of God and I must be able to see the evidence of genuine faith in his life and that others would be able to see that he is a true Christian; that he would love Your words enough to spend time reading and studying God’s word; that he would accept me for who I am.   When the Lord answered my prayer and brought Linus and me together, it was very clear to me.  I just knew because his life clearly demonstrated genuine love for the Lord and other Christians testified to me that fact.

There were many verses at that time which brought assurance of God’s promise to me and that He would continue to answer my prayers.  One such verse that reminded me of God’s faithfulness is 2 Corinthians 1:20 For all the promises of God are in Him yea and in Him amen by the glory of God by us.  Another was Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart - NOT SOME BUT ALL THINE HEART - and lean not unto thine own understanding.   In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths.  Oh how these verses brought comfort to my heart.  They made me realize how real and faithful God is to His word.

I praise God for His faithfulness to my husband and me.  He has never forsaken us.  You might be looking to the Lord to answer your prayers.  Be sure it’s in keeping with His will and then trust the Lord to answer according to His will – not yours.  His will is best.  As the late “Papa C” once told me before he died,  “No matter where you are in the world, being in the Lord’s will is the safest and best place to be."

Jennifer Loius